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things i don't need to say, i dont know ask co pilot thank you bill gates

last night might have been the last time I talk to this evil man that I met over a year ago. he comes up with problems that I could not even dream up. what does it mean to be emotionally invested in someone to an extent that it takes away from your own pleasure? why can't he just be normal and selfish and not care if I am having a good time or not or worry that he is not entertaining to me. is it enough to just trust that I am there because I want to be there and I have a good time with him. and if I weren't having a good time, I would've stopped talking to him a year ago. are you fucking kidding me? man?/???? please god somebody save me. but in the long term does it matter? nope probably not. because we will both always be people on earth and he will come back at some point like he always has and always will and always does and always this and always that and never not. keep leaving voicemails to yourself of the things you wish he would say to you and see how far you go. fuck I need to smoke right now. bye. actually give me two more minutes and I swear things will turn up. but honestly there is no turning up and no turning down. only turning around and spinning like dancing because life is bliss and in my head I;m in a beautiful meadow. bye.